Saturday, March 1, 2014

I looked at the hour glass and wondered how the sands slipped through the narrow opening without my notice? The flowing sand is so silent, so swift, so unstoppable!  Yet in this progression I still sit outside the glass enclouse, alive and watching with wonder and fasniation at the movement of the tiny bits of glass and rock that we refere to as sand.

Suddenly with out my full understanding of how I got here, it is now March 1, 2014!!  All I know is I am still alive, I still watch each dawn, I continue to fight my arch enemie cancer and I breath in each day as if it were my last!  Life is good.  My family is wonderful.  My friends are amazing.

It seems the longer I battle cancer, the less I want to talk about it or acknowledge I do battle daily.  Somehow that gives it power.  I refuse to let it rob me of my identity.  I am not a Cancer Sufferer.  I at the core of my being am Dawn.  Dawn the poet, Dawn the artist, Dawn the Mom, Dawn the wife and Dawn the sister of a host of  wonderful friends.  Thats all , no less , no more.

So here is my update.  I have survived five years now.  The doctors and the bone scans state that the cancer is hiding in my bones.  It is like Pac Man trying to munch away on my frame.  I continue to believe given the right amount of peace, love and nutrition mixed with the light of God that my body can fight this thing. I just had surgery last month to put in a Port.  That is a disk under my skin that helps infusion nurses give me my one IV monthly that will strengthen my bones.  It is not Chemo, but has it's challenges, it gives me flu like symptoms for a couple of days and then I just get on with my life! So that is my summery!

Meanwhile my future dreams at this point include, getting a little poodle puppy, perhaps training it to be a therapy dog in care facilities.  I want to dog sit.  You can find my web site on Rover.com.  I am listed as a puppy sitter for a local vet called Hannah Society.

My poetry continues to come and go at will.  I am still putting everything, (art, poems etc.) in my journals.  I am on number 61 right now.  Today I was cleaning my office and came accross my first journal, I was 13 years old!

I have taught a workshop at a women's retreat teaching other people how to create heirloom journals.  It was a great joy and I hope to give it again soon.

Puppets seem to be in my future, perhaps with the children at our new church.  I have been sewing from scratch new puppets, buying stuffed animals and converting them into puppets.  I will keep you updated on how that plays out.

My newest hobby is creating miniature gardens.  I just completed one this week using tiny sediums!  I love going to thrift shops looking for tiny people and animals, bird baths and benches to add to my tiny worlds.

Well that is enough about me, what about you?  I would love to have a response to my blogs, it would be fun and an encouragement all rolled into one.